i am officially done with school! no more obnoxious emails, stressing over papers and projects, and no more 8am classes! …well, at least for now. i’m not leaving school forever, just taking a year off detox and explore.
i can’t believe how many emotions i’m feeling right now. i might go into emotional overload. i’m sad to leave my roommates and friends, relieved to have my own room again, not so sure about living with my mom again, excited to start working, hopeful for the future, and scared of running away from something that has been so amazing. but then i just have to remember. i’m not running away. and this year hasn’t been all that great. so i’m moving on, to different and more exciting things (namely mexico).
it’s weird to pack up my room. i feel like i will be tucked in my extra-long twin bed tonight, just like every other night this year. it’s weird walking up the stairs, thinking that it will be the last time i ever tap my ID at the desk. thinking that i’ll never have to evacuate the building at 3am due to a fire alarm. or deal with the ever-tempermental ECwireless. or worry about eating before the DH closes. or have to store my entire life in one tiny room, complete with two other roommates. or enjoy the delicious tuna melts from emcaf. or the amazing hot chocolate from the thinking cup. or throw muddy dodge balls at people with a broom between my legs, while decked out in black and pink.
i feel like this is my life forever. but now it’s all changing.
this year has been full of so many things–some amazing, some far from it. but it’s all been a great experience and i wouldn’t trade it for the world. i wish i didn’t have to leave this place, but i know it’s not the best place for me right now. maybe i’ll come back in the future, though i’m pretty sure that the countryside (or maybe mexico) has my heart. and as sad as i am to leave my friends, i have a few really great friends that i know i will stay friends with forever. i may not see them every day, but i know i can always talk to them and we’ll meet up again some day. there’s closure in that.
i look to the future with hope and excitement. ridding my computer of all emerson related things, like bookmarks and emails, is refreshing. i’m beginning my cleanse that i shall continue when i get home. i’m excited to get a job and start earning my own money–i think i’ll develop a new appreciation for it. i’m looking forward to repairing my relationship with my mom. and being home for my best friend’s wedding. and i’m so so so excited to take an extended vacation in mexico (it’s still up in the air, but i know i’m definitely going somewhere, sometime). this past year has been great, but i think this next year has even more to offer. i’m excited. (:
so, so long to you amazing Emersonians. you’re all beautiful and amazing and going be incredibly successful in whatever you do. goodbye boston, the city that never seems to sleep (because i am always wide awake with it) and has so many great things to offer. hello again, to my friends and family back home. i’ve missed you. and welcome, future adventures and happiness, because you’re exactly what i need and what i plan to get.
(wow, that was long. props to anyone who read that the whole way through! you deserve a bowl of fruit!)